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This website serves two purposes: first, it is a collection of my writings—my memories, confessions, reflections, and observations of the world. Second, it is a store for Christian cultural and creative products.
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“Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.”
2025
The Call (Pt.2)
I finally understood why, a year ago, when I tried to empathize with Jesus, I was overwhelmed by immense sorrow.
The Call (Pt.1)
Something essential began quietly changing.
2024
“Disciples of Christ”
I had charged into what I believed was a spiritual battle, completely blind to the bitterness and pride in my own heart.
A Daughter of Jerusalem
“Daughters of Jerusalem, weep not for me, but weep for yourselves, and for your children.”
CPTSD
If all things exist for only the purpose of His glory, and He created me for such a good purpose, then no creature can inflict an absolute evil upon me.
Every Nation, Every Soul
My resentment and indifference were vast until I understood how the Lord led the Christians in this country through the Red Sea, walking on dry land.
A Letter to Phoebe (Pt.2)
If He decides for me to leave this country now, then I’ll leave. If in the future, He guides me back, then I’ll come back.
A Letter to Phoebe (Pt.1)
I do love Him; I just need to gradually recognize how much I love Him, to understand how deeply the Gospel is embedded in my life.
My Greatest Rebellion
The problem lies only with me—I am not willing to bear this cross like He did, at least not yet.
Returning Hometown During Qingming Festival
I envy those Christians abroad who preach in public places, not only because of their freedom but also because I know I can’t change anyone.
Opposing Superstition
How can you judge that the small benefits in front of you are really benefits, and ultimately that you don’t need to pay any price?
The Forgetfulness of
the Gentiles
This forgetfulness manifests mainly in two aspects: forgetting the love of God and forgetting our own past.
Housewife and Family
If I couldn’t fight it when I was a child, then I will just fight this whole sinful social culture in my own marriage as an adult.
The Unconditional Trust
Now, I see far ahead the narrow gate of Abraham’s faith.
Another Narrow Gate: Honesty
The diversity of perspectives is a methodology for loving others. But for each individual, the narrow gate remains narrow forever.
Do Not Stand
You are the source of natural laws, the ultimate rationality, the eternity; and yet, you love me.
A Letter to Andreas
I think that he was arranged by the Lord to hear me.
Let the Dead Bury
Their Own Dead
When I understood this truth, I no longer regarded my relatives as part of one big family.
I Can Only Escape
As an individual, I can find the way, I can be rebuilt, it is entirely possible.
Disappointment, Loneliness, Love
I hope you understand that I’m not venting or demanding, but writing with love for you my fellow Christians.
Ex-colony
If I have to become a rogue, scoundrel, or fool for the so-called “roots,” then I am truly beyond redemption.
Learn to Suspend Knowledge
I need to go back to when I was in my early twenties and pour out the bathwater again.
